there comes a point in life, and maybe you've experienced this as well, where you just fucking hate everything. Providence is becoming a fucking deathtrap, a hole, and it's swallowing me alive. I need to get the fuck out of here. I hate school, I hate work, I hate people, I hate riding my bike, I hate taking a shower solely because I have the time to, I hate watching TV, I hate leaving the house, I hate the thought of staying inside all day. I need a new life, cos this one's WAY past it's fucking prime.
sometimes I miss the old me. the posi- me. the chris that would take everything and make something good out of it. but after a while, you start to realize that that's not the way shit works. being positive and nice isn't going to get you anywhere. I've been too nice for too long, and all I've gotten is stepped on, continuously. well fuck that, not anymore.
I'm glad the old me is gone. I hope that motherfucker never comes back.